Nothing says professional like crying

Ay… way to spoil my “tough girl” image. The position I am in… well, its got a big learning curve for anyone. Add to it that skill set wise, I had a lot to learn to start with. The learning curves I have normally had look something like a gradual hill. This one is straight up. The feedback I am getting is that I am doing well learning. I am improving. Things are sinking in. All great stuff.

Today though just kind of brought everything to a head. I am used to being the “go to” girl. In my first position with this company, within 6 months, I had senior folks coming to me with questions. The same thing with my second position. This one…. well, I feel like I will never be done learning. Its hard. Its really hard. The concepts, the technical side and the process side. I feel like I am having so many new things dumped on me and not enough time to learn them all.

I just lost it today. In tears, sniveling, blubbering in tears. Talk about embarrassing. All I can do is put one foot in front of the other and learn as I go. My brain will not explode.