Do you hear that?

Can you hear that? No? Are you sure? Really?

Its the sound of silence. The wonderful, precious, glorious sound of nothingness. No toddler crying, whining, demanding, babbling. No dog barking, begging, scratching, licking. No phone ringing. No people talking. Nothing. Sweet, pure nothingness.

I was never one to really enjoy silence until I had my son. Once I had him, there was always noise. Somewhere, even if it was only my brain going a mile a minute. Tonight, there is just bliss.

Last night was a hard night. Alex woke up screaming off and on all night. It seemed that as soon as I fell back asleep each time, he was back up screaming like someone was sticking needles in him. I can’t find a cause. No fever, comfortable temperature in the room, full belly, no new foods. Trust me, I ran through the gamut in my head last night. Needless to say, this morning was very difficult to get going moving. He then had a very rough morning at daycare, I had a rough morning at work. Both of us short tempered and overall cranky.

He fell asleep early tonight, as will I. Silence is not something that I thought about prior to having him. Money, sleep, energy, health, money, money, money, yes. Silence, no. Its something I find that I crave some days. Our days are so filled between work, daycare, commuting, dinner, and bath that by the time it is over with, there is little energy to expend simply enjoying the quiet.