I am learning how to be more honest with myself. And it seriously sucks because its forcing me to realize things and cop to things I don't like. Things about me and things I have let others do to me and because of me.

Through it I am learning to be more honest with other people, about what I need and what I want. I think I am also starting to see a little bit more about what I deserve. I don't know how much of that I actually think other people believe I deserve and maybe even I don't believe it... but I want to. I think that is the first step.