sensitive....

So I am feeling very sensitive today. And a little insecure. And I hate it. I know why... I've journaled enough about it the last few days. I just hate being vulnerable and I let someone into that little tiny area of my heart and well, I can't say I got hurt, because I didn't, not really, I mean I knew the score before I went in. I just, I dunno. I am tired of wanting things to be different than they actually are. Instead, I am at the same place again, wishing that I had never let down that wall because had I not done that, I wouldn't know what I was missing. Or at the very least, had so many memories rekindled.